I did not go to my OJT aka WORK today. My friends and I decided not to go since we don’t really have a duty on a Friday. I wanted to sleep all day but I ended up watching Modern Family. Also, I wanted to camp out in the living room since it’s very cold in my room but then, I miss my bed so, I decided to stay.
Maybe, the reason why our OJT was not during the summer is that, they wanted us tor realize how miserable life is when we’re already working. What I mean is, they wanted us to feel how work is different from school because when we’re already working we don’t have these privileges that students have when suspension of classes are lifted. Work doesn’t stop and resume after a storm.
OJT aka work is tiring. We pass proposals every week. We have responsibilities such as being a Facilitator and a House Officer, we even have quizzes and reports (we had a dance quiz this week.. kamusta naman di ba? dance.. quiz..) Clinical setting is very very very very tiring.
Thesis galore this weekend.
What I did a few hours ago…
Hello, Shelly! See you on the 20th of July. :)
Now, I have to do my written STR about MSE and my daily journal for last week. Ugh.. Sunrise!
This is my first week in Sunrise Hill Therapeutic Community. I still don’t know what the highlight of my week is. It was a new adventure for me. A kind of adventure I never thought I’d get to experience from commuting (Hello, Cubao! Hello, QC!) to the actual practice of my program. It’s funny because last summer, I told myself that I need a sunrise and that, I’m tired of the sunset. Look at what institution I am now affiliated to.
I wanted to write more about my experiences but I guess ,I’ll just write some other time. Maybe when I get to finish the 200 hours for this setting.
Hello daw oh.. sabi nung clavicle ko
I made an excuse to go to school and told my mother that I need to adjust my schedule for my Theology class since OJT ends at 12nn. I/We wanted to get a Theo class as early as 2pm in order to maximize time for our thesis. Pero joke lang talaga yon. We went to SM Manila to accompany Inah on buying a lot of things. After that, we spent the rest of the afternoon at Starbucks Muralla. Today was fun [which is very relevant on the picture].
I really have to sleep now. I have an 8:30 a.m. class tomorrow.
Before buying a toothbrush…
After buying a toothbrush
Tomorrow is the first day of classes and so, I went to the mall to buy myself the things I need in school. Actually, I just bought a toothbrush.
I will blog more about toothbrush as soon as I feel like writing about it. Walang neuron firings tonight eh.
Good night.
So, here it is.. my blog entry for Toothbrush. It was only that it occurred to me that my title for this post sounds kinky, idk, is it just me? lul. That is the brand of my new toothbrush, after all.
Anyway, I bought a toothbrush just before school starts (I guess, that kinda rhymed) See, I have this thing for toothbrush. I get too attach with a lot of things, most especially, with a toothbrush.
Okay, I’m just kidding. I have used my old toothbrush for over six months and DAMN (although, I hate using the word DAMN.. it dint felt realistic, doncha think? maybe it’s just me.. again) it looks.. I CAN’T EVEN DESCRIBE IT! It’s just downright fugly. I woke up one day realizing that I ‘need’ a new toothbrush.
This was the perfect time to buy myself a new toothbrush. There’s a lot of new things in my life right now and I want a toothbrush to kind of represent all of it because.. I really have a thing for toothbrush.
No, that’s just a lame excuse. But then, who knows maybe I really have a thing for that.
Enough. So, today is my first day and I feel so tired right now but then, every inch of my body is not cooperating. It’s as if I’ve been wanting to escape from this body and just sleep all day and all night. But I am here, typing the thoughts I have at the moment. Wanting to find something that dwells inside me. Some kind of realization.. I have been looking.. searching.. introspecting.. I am re-learning myself day by day and it’s very inspiring to look into oneself and dig deeper. It doesn’t necessarily extract my feelings or even the memories. It somehow replicate the feelings or the memories deep within me and make me try to look at it from a different perspective. It’s crazy sometimes, but it’s worth it.
Maybe, I have to end this post now.
Good morning!
I got the chance to reconnect with the people whom I’ve been with for the past nineteen years of my life. It’s funny ‘cos we never did the things we did just this month. We stayed at home the whole month, I guess. Of course, I had to let go of some things and some people which will forever hold a piece of my heart. Everything will be worth it, I hope. I’ve put much effort into this. I will be putting a lot of effort into this.
I have no decent photos for this month except these! :)
I haven’t updated my planner because I was too busy doing nothing at home. I don’t even know what to write cos everyday felt like a routine or a cycle, why would I even bother to write it down? I finally had the courage to fix my closet [been working on it since last week], my desk looks so immaculate right now and yes, I think that’s it… I have marked down this date on my planner with: HELLO I’M BACK. I also wrote down, “Enrollment tomorrow w Ila” which by this time I will be going through alone [busy si bestfriend :( ]. I can smell freedom starting tomorrow. See, my mother allowed me to enroll by myself. Wish me luck for I will be conquering Quiapo and the streets of Manila while having with me a handful of moolah!
So, yeah.. going back to my planner.. I have wrote this down January 1st, i think. It’s on the first page of January, it’s the things to do: page and I wrote:
*things to do:
Reviewers
TNA
Reflection on SocPsych
LPS Narratives
Also, I wrote an additional note:
*starting now
1. Exercise
2. Blog weekly
3. Save moolah!
4. Less load
5. Mag-aral ka!
6. Diet
7. Clothes
8. Vitamins
9.
10. Let go.
That was what I wrote back then, I have no idea, I’ve been wanting to let go ever since the start of the year. So, It took me roughly about four months then? ..to finally accept what I needed to accept.
And as I turn the pages of my planner.. I realized that I haven’t written anything about him since then. That’s just sad but I guess, it’s just a reflection of what I’m really upto during that time. Everything was about papers and experiments and TO DOs and meeting with my friends.
By the end of January..
*notes: recap of my month
One word - challenging. This was my first thought when I tried to sum up all that happened this month. Everyday brings the good and bad at me. As I would say, rough and tough. It was heartbreaking in a way because of some particular events that came up. Week 1 was when I dealt of goodbyes - to almost everything.. from my tita and cousin to the things that became a part of me for quite some time, to the memories that once define my feelings, to the different routines I have to break for a band new and fresh start. To tell you the truth, I haven’t totally detached myself to these things, people, or memories. Everyday, I tell myself that I must detach myself to these and move on with my life but I guess, more effort must be put upon to be able to do it. I know it would take time, I can’t wait ‘til I finally breakaway and I’m really excited about it. College life is pretty much decent although, I’m not proud of my unproductive life these days. I am starting to revive my old self, the one who is all grade conscious and don’t-care-if-I-don’t-sleep-at-all attitude. Emotionally, I am emotional. I don’t know how to describe it but it’s the feeling of melancholy all over me. I try to put up a mask and pretend that everything is alright but I guess, it’s not working. Although, I am still thankful for all that is happening to me. Is it even a good thing to be thankful about it? I don’t know but that’s just how I feel.
January was a pain in the ass but for sure it made me a better person. It’s a good way to start my 2011. January will always be a memorable month for me. Eleven months to go…
Goodnight January,
Leli
Sims 3 World Adventures. If only this emotion could attest reality.
I will be reading this tonight. out of impulse…
P.S. I don’t feel like blogging a blab tonight. I’ll just end up crying, i think.
P.P.S. Last night, I cried myself to sleep. —parang.. kanta ba yan? lul.
— LJ (via lelibitofcrazy)
That isn’t really scary. Truth or happiness, never both.
Today, I came to a realization that I loved too much and I lived a little. It’s hard to be too attached to a person (We shared three years of our lives) and what hurts the most is not knowing where you stand on a special someone’s life (for three years) Yes, I’m a martir, like that. We never really had the commitment from the very start. We thought we’re in love but then fuck it, love isn’t enough.
I knew this day would come when he would tell me that I deserve someone better and I just had to enjoy life and live a little. I knew his love isn’t the kind where love and lust come together. I knew his love was turning in to something that would ruin what we have right now.
We never really had each other. We just shared an intricate moment, that is all.
I intentionally showed my colorful nails while playing with bubbles. I spent the whole afternoon inside the bathroom doing things that are appropriate.. to do when taking a bath. I took the foot massager with me (owned by my tita, hi ta bex!). It was a very relaxing thing to do.
P.S. I did not tidy my closet today.
P.P.S. I actually had a bad day. I mean, he totally ruined my day but thank God, I’m about to sleep and this day is about to end.
P.P.P.S. Ugh. Never you mind.
(1) A hanging bookshelf right on top of my bed (yezzz, so expect me to be deads when a high-magnitude earthquake hits Manila and the focus of the earthquake is Cainta HAHAHAHA WAT
(2) My jewelry box where ….i put my jewelries? I don’t accesorize much. Less is more.
(3) My favorite bangle bracelet (cos I only have one). I only wear it when I’m not in the mood to wear earrings.
(4) My collection of nail polish since first year college. It was just a phase in my life when I got addicted to neon colored nail polish. WAS. A PHASE.
(5) My mirror desk which is now tidy and girly. (adjectives must rhyme)
(6) Idk what it’s called.. but that’s where I put the love letters from my friends, my 18th birthday chuvanes && CDs (that’s Dido right there!) And my Calendar blocks which I wasn’t able to change today.
I’ve been cleaning the basement for the past two days. I want everything to be in its right place because it will take me a year before I clean my room again. I’ve been like this since high school.
Tomorrow is closet day and I’m scared to open my closet. It’s a disaster.
P.S. Cliffhanger texts: that’s when somebody texts you, then, you immediately reply, you’ll wait for that somebody’s text only to realize that somebody’s already asleep & you’ll have your second realization that HE TEXTED YOU RIGHT BEFORE HE SHUTS HIS EYES. Sweet mo talagaaaa.
